Then today, was a start of a new month! 

And its my favourite month bc its a holiday month HAHA.

Though its finally here, it only means that its going to pass really fast.

And for those taking Os this year, this will only be a study break. :(

Have to buck up alr!

Uneasy expression bc i was at iModels Holdings for an interview.

Well turns out that i got to pay hundreds of bucks to make a profile card first.

Its actually very worth it, but i don't have the money to pay right now, and my parents might just kill me for the cost. :/ ARGH.

Loving my sketchy Chanel shirt btw.

Went shopping at H&M afterwards..

Not very fond of their collection now.

But managed to pick up 2 outfits that i like, and one of them is this body con skirt.

Its the only one left, and it happened to be my size

Today i spent the day at a friend's place, almost the whole day.

Yet another ordinary saturday, spent with extraordinary people <3

Thank you for your hospitality Andy and Annie! You both are greatly appreciated. :)

Another thing i got, a jersey like oversized.

Recently i had sort of a 'conflict' with my older sister.

I got really heated up at her bc that day was my TOM(girls if you know what i mean), and i was really feeling very tired on the way home.

I had no money left, and i needed to get something from Shop and Save opp my place.

So i called my sister which was at home and asked her to lend me $4 bucks.

I told her i wanted to buy something, but it wasnt enough for her. It was like i have to tell her EXACTLY what i want to buy and WHY. That really pissed me off bc its like cant she just trust me?

On top of that, before that night i alr told her a few times before.

The annoying thing about her is that she asks the same question over and over again.

Moving on, 

I asked her if she's getting anything form there so that i can meet her there straight. 

My bus will alight at that side. In the end she said no, and asked me to go home and collect the money.

Having no choice, i carried my heavy guitar which was with me the whole day back home and asked her to come down.

Turns out, SHE'S GOING. 

I lost it. Right there. And i told her, how tired i was, and stomped off first. She walked behind.

What's more?

When we reached Shop and Save, the thing i wanted was out of stock. 

And she didnt even bothered about my feelings at all. 

She got her chips and asked me with an unhappy tone "eh you done alr anot?"

I was so angry at her that i cant even look at her and respond. I ignored her.

She put back her stuff, and left the shop just like that. 

I reached home, and idk why she reached later than me. I was closing the gate then.

Even when she walked faster so that i would wait for her before i close the gate, i closed the gate right in front of her. "Are you freaking kidding me" says miss arrogant

and she had to ring the doorbell for my aunt to open the gate for her.

The thing that bothers me most, is that she can always be so self centered. and thinks she's correct all the time. 

She NEVER gives in to say 'sorry' all her life. And i have to admit, i have a part in spoiling her.

Its like HELLO? Who's supposed to be mad here?

She can come up with ALL kinds of reasons and excuses to say that she is right, in ANY situation.

You can even end up getting blamed.

She's really something.

She was never like an OLDER sister to me. I was always the one having her back.

I wonder, have she ever thought if she was ever there for me?

She expects a lot from me, yet she cant embrace my flaws.

She can only expect what she wants out of me. And when i fall, she just leaves it.

I'm sorry about this 'rant' that i'm making here. I know it would make me look bad, and it might be boring for y'all..

But i really just need to express this out somewhere.

As someone supposedly younger. I really yearn for her to grow up.

I dont hate her, i just need her to be an older sister to me.

After that night, i seriously felt so bad.

I guess i just need a lil bit of time to brush things up.

I will. I just need time.

Pray for me, kay?

Goodnight loves <3